This weekend

She may have a date this weekend.

Without me.

With a guy she's texted, emailed, had phone sex with and met for drinks (that turned into a rendezvous in the men's room).

I've had a rollercoaster over the last week or so, thinking about it, re-thinking about it, thinking about it more.  Its a bit consuming because this guy is different, he's confident, well off, and based on her interactions with him so far...she likes him.  He's making me more competitive for her, and also making me jealous at times.  When I picked her up after she met him the first time for drinks, she had a wicked laugh that just gave me the shivers at first, there was something there, an excitement and electricity in her that was so fun to see.

The last few weeks have had some intense moments (like the day she texted me a bunch while at work, telling me she was texting with him about stripper shoes, then going home to take pictures for him, then getting him off over the phone).  Even on a recent weekend getaway, we had sex and she used his name a few times.  Sex has been pretty powerful, and my mind has been racing at over 100mph for most of the time each day, at work or at home.  When I'm at work I think about what she's up to...is she just home relaxing, out shopping, or using her 'special phone' to text and chat with this guy.  At home, I can't help but wonder whats gone on in the house all day.  I know most (emphasis on most :) ) of it is me fantasizing, but given that there's an element of reality to it, its quite intoxicating (literally, like I feel drunk sometimes, haha).

What's on tap for this weekend then?  Well, as of right now (and things are always subject to change), the plan is that she's going to meet him for a drink, then go to his place afterwards (after she and I have a meal together first and I send her on her way).  I bought her a new bra and panty set (which I got first dibs on seeing tonight, and I have to say...she looks STUNNING in it), that she'll likely wear tomorrow night, its fun to see her thinking about what to wear for him.  Even tonight she was asking about what to wear for her dress, then she said 'not that it will stay on long'...its those little comments here and there that get me going and kick my brain into overdrive again :)

The one email that she shared with me about the setup for the date ended with (from him) "Bring your camera....."....

She Has A Date Tonight

She's recently found a new guy online and has her first date with him tonight. Over the past couple of weeks, there has been a bunch of emailing and texting back and forth and I have to say, this time feels different from the others. As far as I can tell, and as she and I have talked about, she's alot more interested in this one than previous dates she's had over the years. And because of that, I feel different too (mostly in a good way :) ).

We've used words like 'intense' and 'heightened' to describe how the last couple of weeks have felt for both of us.

Looking forward to seeing how tonight goes :)